My dear mentor who pushed me, kicking and screaming, into ” the field” because you said I had special gifts of discernment and could deal gently with all truths not seen.I just now found out you slipped the bonds of this life for the one you knew without a doubt waits for us, a joyful eternal time of knowing, not learning, with our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. You were a shining example of the very best of the spiritual self, yet you helped all who needed you with GRAND EXPERTISE without hesitating to see who a new admission’s insurer was or if they were Medicaid admissions on your on-call schedule. During my time of learning from you, I saw you so devoted to research clinical trials, to new treatment modalities, and every day was a fresh new beginning in your world. Never jaded or cynical, never too busy to answer a question- OR- ask a few difficult ones yourself.I prayed so that the brain cancer would be banished, that you would survive and thrive.. Prayed because I KNEW the world needed you more than there are words. Prayed because you asked us to please pray for your healing because you had so much work you wanted to accomplish. You and God had other plans after the first surgery, so my grief is for the loss of all that you were when you walked through this world, a minister, a scholar, teacher, student always learning and growing, a most nurturing spirit to all of us who were trying to follow in your footsteps every fifth step or so if we were lucky.I remember your love for animals, so like mine. Your dogs, your horses, and the story you told me one night in an ice storm during Christmas when we were watching a blue moon rise. You told me about your magnificent stallion, and of your love for him and his trust in you, and how his heart was so much larger than other stallions his size. You shed tears, all those years later, because he died with your arms around his neck, cradling his beautiful head. You understood that love is not a feeling, it’s the act of extending one’s self for the betterment of animals and other people, not ourselves. YOU were the one with the ” biggest heart”, and I recall trying to tell you so through my tears. Just one of many very unusual chats, so open, honest, natural between two friends and colleagues.I hope, as I age, if there are many more years in which to ” age”, that I never forget one single thing you taught me, or showed me by not saying a word, just silent in prayers and compassion.For his beloved wife,Susan, his ” Susy”, he loved you with every part of his DNA and spirit, and I know he’s watching over you tenderly now, too. Look for your Ernie, he’ll be there in the bird’s call early in the AM, in the wildflowers, in the moon. He loved the moon and stars, :). I will never ever understand why Dr. B had to be the one stricken with such a debilitating and ultimately, life- ending brain illness. His work has helped so many people, literally more than one generation have been helped, either as his students, his clients, his research participants, or through his steadfast and fierce love for God; probably, through a combination of more than one facet of a personality that had more brilliant facets than the most perfect diamond nature ever made. His genius burned so brightly and we were all the better for knowing just fractions of it.I wish I’d been able to work with him after I graduated, but that’s when the brain monster came back around. He fought such a valiant fight, Susan, he fought his last battle with you and for you, to stay with his one true love, even if he’d never worked again in his life’s magnificent obsession. The fight was worth the struggles and the pain because you were there, his soul mate.We shall not despair, for we who believe in Heaven and have Jesus as our personal Savior will see him again one fine day that never ends… In God’s time. I’ll leave you with the last question he ever asked me, for this is the true essence of Dr. Ernest Brownlee’s gifts in asking profound questions in the most offhanded ways: ” What’s a sunset worth if you only have *one more*